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Post by DUCKMASTER1 on Dec 6, 2017 20:13:50 GMT -5
Hello, it has been a good while since I have been on here , and just kinda of wanted to let some in on how I am doing . I have had several emails wanting to check on me and pray for me . Thank you so much . Well, divorce was final , new journey in life . My sons have chosen not to speak with me . Have not seen one since June and the other since August . My oldest texted happy bday in November and happy thanksgiving , but the youngest even though he is 19 , he has pretty much told me to stay out of his life . I pray every day and evening , Woodys prayers on Facebook lifts me . But I know Satan has his grips on my 2 sons . I have had a long struggle this year , thoughts that should not be happening , I do take medication to help and have talked with counselors . But everyone handles things differently . I still text my sons at least 2 times a week and let them know I Love them . They won’t answer their phone. But first year in 22 years that have not seen them on my bday , and feel this will be the same at Christmas time that will not be able to see them . Breaks my heart and hurts like nothing else . So those that are praying , please keep praying for my 2 sons and myself . I have been blessed with a great Mother and Brother who have helped me so much . Sometimes you just cry for no reason . But I still pray and know that God will help me through this all. Thank you all and God Bless Brian
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Post by genesis273 on Dec 7, 2017 7:34:31 GMT -5
Prayers sent.
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Post by Jamie Brooks 1John5:13 on Dec 14, 2017 10:03:32 GMT -5
It sure sounds like the wilderness to me. It is like nothing else we have ever experienced mentally and often physically.
God truly may feel so far away, but he is not. We all sin, and suffer the consequences. You have confessed your sin, even publicly. You are forgiven, but the consequences have now manifested. It will last long and be very painful, but there is hope; there really is.
The hopeless feeling that you feel is real, but it's just a feeling. It may plague you like a demon, and probably is one. As long as God allows you to be in this wilderness you will be and nothing will get you out of it. I have been there. Even if the whole world would pray for your mental healing now, it will not happen yet. Yes, God could just immediately zap us into the vessel he desires, but this is not how he has chosen to deal with sin and mankind. It's a growing process.
Brian, all suffering has a purpose, even when we've caused it ourselves. God will always bring good from it for those who love Him. I remember being told when I was a kid that I was experiencing growing pains. This is what you feel now. You are growing spiritually, but it certainly may not feel like it. You have been broken ...completely. Sometimes this is necessary for God to mold us into a vessel that he can use. Keep this thought in your mind. He could not use you as you were. You're blessed that he has chosen keep you alive, some are not so fortunate. He sees hope in you and this is why you live. He sees the vessel that you will become.
For me, I didn't know why, why this had been thrust upon me. It didn't matter, the pain couldn't have been any worse. After years of it, I did believe that God was preparing me for something better, and he did.
He is always faithful and he will finish what he has started in you.
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